unconscious endeavours

REASONING

There ought to be a better reason for me to do something than because I need to do it.
But if I were to say that because "I like it", is it not enough?

If I do not believe in it, how can I make myself believe that I can do it? Is it a just a matter of confidence? I do not think so. The conversation with my professor the other day just made me ponder and wonder if architecture is really for me. Not that I do not believe that I cannot design, it is just that sometimes I just cannot make myself accept the fact that I have to do all those presentations just to make somebody understand what I am thinking.
Not that I do not know that that is the whole theory about COMMUNICATION. There is no need for communication if the other person happens to lie in the exact frequency as me. We can just live comfortably in silence.
I do, I do...understand all these theories! BUT, sometimes, its just so hard for me to convince myself that there ought to be a better reason than that.
As much as I am a self-confessed hermit, I do love to hold conversations with people. I like to talk to people because I like to know them a little better. But I am just bad at socializing. I know, I know..that I ought to change my state of mind..but sometimes..it's justset out that way...especially at times of frustrations...

posted by shuugi @ 11:30 AM